It’s been a very interesting weekend for me to say the least. And this has clearly become the place for me to vent. And I’ve already vented this out to my friends who were with me at the time, along with my older sister. Soooo I guess I should start by having to admit that I was somehow in the middle of a testosterone quarrel on friday night. No way of knowing that all that shit would go down, but it did. Went to a bar, met a ridiculously handsome man. Pretty much, words can’t begin to describe the caliber of how attractive this man was. So it was pretty far from my mind that it would go anywhere beyond friendly conversation. But to my shock, he was taken by my presence and was the sweetest any man could be to a girl he just met. He said things like “you have the prettiest face in this entire place.” Then he abruptly stopped mid conversation to admit that he was “smitten” with me. So I was a pretty happy lady at this point. He told me he wanted to take me out and do it properly. So it was all good and he bought us a round of drinks and the energy/connection between us was pretty great at this point. But apparently I was unaware of what was coming, cause I was too busy being smitten too. But his friend must have been interested as well because he pulls me towards him and starts slow dancing with me cause they were playing 50s music. He takes my cold hands cause it was freezing and pulls them to his lips and he starts blowing on them and kissing them. I am still trying to process what is going on and mentally freaking out, hoping this “hot man” doesn’t see it. He did, and everything that was, was demolished. The energy changed and I could tell the two of them were having a lil tension towards each other on who fucking claimed me first?! Moral of the story, boys are ridiculous and foolish, I clearly was interested in the first one. NO FUCKING QUESTION ABOUT THAT. I had no control or knowledge that the friend would pull that shit out of nowhere. But oh well, I moved on and tried to forget about it. I recently heard someone on the radio encourage the listeners to say yes to everything. Because most of the time, that spontaneous “yes” turns out to be better than you had ever expected. So I did that last night, even under the circumstances of my annoyance from the previous night’s scandal. I was invited to an old coworkers birthday party bus/hollywood/clubbing night out. And I decided to go no matter how I was feeling. Boy did that night turn out better than I had hoped. I met the most wonderful group of people. And I met another guy, who was on the bus. And we were pretty much inseparable the entire night. He was tall, dark, handsome, well dressed and just sexy. We had a pretty good night together in and out of the bus. I lose my shit thinking about last night, cause one of the girls on the bus saw us embracing each other and she comes up and says that we just need to stop being so beautiful together. Then she gets unnecessary and starts to say that we have the most beautiful faces and hair and that we just need to start making beautiful babies together. Unecessary man. But hilarious. So saying yes to that invitation turned out to be quite pleasing. And to everyone else out there, if you get invited to anything. I pass onto you the wisdom of that radio man, “say yes to everything!” You might be pleasantly surprised with the outcome.
It is officially the last month of 2013. Time has moved too quickly this past year. I tend to do this every year. A little ritual. Kind of a recap for myself as to what I accomplished in the last year. Remember the good times and the bad. See how much I’ve grown from all of it. This was the year of the snake, my year. And boy was it my year. I spent a number of months being pretty poor, but by choice. Because I wanted something better for myself. I quit my job with no back up job and hoped that the universe would push me in the proper direction. Sometimes you just have to make some sacrifices to reach that end goal. I lost some of my greatest friends this year too, one’s that I never would have even imagined being apart from. But that’s how life is and people change, evolve and new chapters begin. But I was blessed with some new friends that I would have never expected to be this close to. I grew closer with long lost friends, and gained new long time friends. I took multiple spontaneous road trips and used the majority of my savings to drive up the northwest. It was foolish and stupid but sometimes you just have to live cause you know that just for a moment in time, you’ll feel that pure joy and it’s worth every penny. But then there were the stormy days, as there always are in my storybook. It isn’t an Acosta life if there isn’t tele novella level drama. But I think with my past tribulations, I grew strong, and was able to endure things I probably wouldn’t have handled well a year ago. I also found a great job. A salary paid job that so generously leaves me with a large amount of extra money to do as I please. I also have my own place now, all on my own, paying all my bills on my own and surviving like the independent woman I always dreamt of becoming. And it literally gets me giddy thinking that I finally reached a level in my career, that if I choose to leave, I can finally manage to get that “dream” job on the east coast. But that won’t be for a while. I’m still sticking around for a bit. I finally grew out my hair too! The longest it’s ever been in my entire life. My parents never really allowed it to get tooo long, it was always at a conservative length but my hair is so long that I have trouble with purses, and car doors…The struggles of a thick and long haired gal. But I am enjoying the hair immensely. There were other struggles here and there as well, but I had friends supporting me and boosting me up whenever I needed it, and I was right back there when they needed that shoulder to cry on too. Even sobbed through movie trailers with one of my best friends. That’s friendship right there. Sobbing over minute long previews with no shame. And I watched everyone around me grow up into adults as I was doing it. It’s weird to see this transition of all my peers. All of us finally getting our foot into what we’ve been working years to get to. And of course the love life. There was an unnecessary amount of male attention this year. Probably because I grew my hair out and stopped dressing so androgynous. But I’m growing up and I’m beginning to look less like a 16 year old girl which is relieving. It only took 24 years for me to finally look like a grown woman. gah damn. I met some memorable guys, even got an invitation to have a threesome with an adam levine look a like a very sexually charged man named greggggg. It has all been too much for me to handle. And as my coworkers and friends would say, 1. I have a lot of pretendientes and 2. if it were a 50s prom, I would be the first one to get asked to dance. I laugh at this though, because no matter what my physical appearance is, I’ve always tried to love myself no matter what I look like. It’s healthy to embrace who you are, curvy, thin, chunky, boxy, androgynous etc. It doesn’t matter. It’s all beautiful. And I wish more girls would be this confident in a moderate way. Not just because they get washed with compliments, and not just because they reach a certain societal standard, but just be confident cause you can be no matter what you look like. And of course there’s my business that I started. I am finally selling my own clothing designs, along with vintage, and jewelry designs. And I am so grateful for the support I get because it makes me keep going. I make a significant amount of money from there and people actually buy my clothing designs! Which is the most rewarding thing for me. All in all, I think this year wasn’t unlucky at all. Cause they say in Chinese astrology that if it is your year it is bad luck. I had a more than pleasant year. It was a growth-ing period for me. A stepping stone, a taste of what my future will be like. And I’ve got the craziest but best family to share it with, as well as the plentiful of kind hearted/ weird souls I call my friends. Now it’s time to prepare for a party like no other. The celebration of a new year is coming soon and I plan to finish this one off with the biggest bang of all time! goodnight my loves. I’ve wandered into my past for far too long.